hey guys. check this out. the latest of those music videos that just make you go "wow"

Hey guys!!! Back back back!
yay! happy happy. umm, did u know that guys PMS? yep. they do. ask any guy. look in davids blog xD Hey! how else could i go from happy to semi depressed to uber happy in about.. an hour?

Weekend was great. rode so much that ill prob be limping tomorow (m/c 'in is harder than y'all think)

Quotes:
(my brother, after i beat him to the toilet) "Fine, ill just piss in the sink!"
(from jessicas profile) "He is a sexy bitch"
(me dad) "Brazillian nuts??? wtf are those? OH! you mean nigger-toes!"

SOTD:Noises and Kisses by Used

heres ur turkey resolution: 5 things that you are thankful for this year.
1) My friends, all they've done for me, everything they've taught me, and all that they've given me.
2) Experiences experiences experiences! this year has taught me soOO much!
3) Me kitty.. love love love her!
4) My beautiful, beautiful computer and car.
5) Ummm. girls, for making it worth having a pair of eyes.

~Whelps, its time to go to the desert for another weekend of fun. i hope. luke wont be there thiz weekend x( but look forward to monday, when the next edition of shohiles weekly post comes! xP

AHHHH!!! SO EXCITED. hey! i just realized that VERY soon 4 of my fav artists will come out with AWESOME FRIGGIN AWESOME SWEET ASS NEW ALBUMS!!
hoobastank - my reason
the starting line - make yourself at home
trust company - ??
the used - ??

god! how much better can we get.
rumored that evanescence is comin out w/ a new one too!! yes!! i'm gonna have something to listen to!

oooo! i got hoobastanks ep album! SO GOOD!!!! yippee!!

While its fresh in my mind: Today was great!
Haha, had fun in ap us pimpin it ;) ;), in english cuz mrs varieur wasnt a bitch, in spanish cuz we did nothing, in ap cs cuz me and shohile and dmitriy and calvin and brian had a gay orgy, in math cuz we did nothing but play cards and talk and in science cuz theres so many fun ppl to talk to there.
~ey! and i even got some food from in n out. which is near impossible. we got our food in 20 minutes, which is GOOD by their standards, and tyler went 70 MPH across nutwood and caught every light so we got to actually finish our food. ya!
and thats it! happy wednesday!

"Blue And Yellow" - The Used
Havnt heard it? Download it now punk!
by the way my words were faded
rather waste some time with you
haha, id love to "waste some time" w/ kiwi! xD

~yea, thats a coolio song. well, now i'm all queued up. hehe, comp sci term xD . umm. i still g2 read some of spence's blog, and i just found out that david went through a posting spree a few days ago, and i'm always interested in catchin up with old friends. specially super cool ones like david :D
~today was just another boring friggin day. i got super pissed when mr vvitry kept our whole class after for 15 minutes into lunch becuz karen dint finish her test and he couldnt count. stupid bitch. i missed going to in n out w/ tyler because of him. ill never forgive him...today. xP

thats it. bye ~James
(/oi! i g2 do some health thing. find some cigarette ads or something - haha, time to get out the Maxim mags!\)

this bitch of a blogger deleted my nice long post for yesterday. argh. i h8 it, but i love it. so ill try to recreate it in all its glory:

yesterday was all but interesting. i guess. haha, driving to school was boring, school was boring, i guess lunch was pretty cool w/ natty. dont hang out w/ her much anymore xD driving home was ok cuz i stopped at carls w/ tyler and we went home together and (he beat me) he had me d/l some music for him and i showed him RON.

and thats pretty much it. dinner sucked, not much to say about there, but damn, i liked my pants,made me feel like i was in pajamas have the time. haha, so long and cool xD

Oy, and during science fingy said i had a hoochy mama. thats what the whole comment is about below.

Shohiles weekly editorial:

Dear Diary,
Today I had my first orgasm. It was scrumptuous. Jennifer was so happy with me that it was great and tasty. I wish Frank could have been there. i know he loves the Furries. Brian Wung's weiner broke off in her thick ass. IT was GREAT! The videotape almost ran out, but we had another roll. She put on the fruit flavored thong and I ate it off her ass. The pimply texture added a sense of erotica. Jeff was angry with me afterwards cause I banged his bitch. Ah well, that n00b

oy today was odd.
~went to my grammas house to do some free work for her. her cat just died and she has a broken foot, so i guess she deserves my help. Nevertheless, wasnt that intensive, just some mindless sweeping, watering and washing.
~at round 12 started for troy to start shooting my spanish video project. did some creative cool stuff, but it was wasted alot of the time because my group members decided it was more important to discuss *other things*. So we went to spence's house, and to del taco. james w is crazy cool, and drives a crazy cool car. haha, i really like him, wish he was in more of my classes.
~so i went to tower records in search of the new mest album. it cost 15 bucks so i said fuck that and went down to the music warehouse that used to be in yl. unfortunately, it has closed like a bitch. so i dont got an album and i cant download it easily so i have to sit here d/l ing a thousand songs at a time and looking over each one to find the one that isnt corrupted.
~got home and was super tired for some reason ~ so tired i could barely walk. i got some water and it made me feel better. actually, come to think of it, i was feeling really sick too.
~did some laundry and stuff and then sat down at the computer. crap. what hw do i have due? i forgot. oh well, ill just play it by ear tom. nothing TOO bad can come outta it.

lovin ya all xD
James.

i wanna do something this weekend. now that i aint goin to the play cuz all my friends decided to drop out, i g2 do SOMETHING. psh. anybody wanna do something?

the other urge:
goodnite all.

aiyeyeye. ummm, i feel the extreme urge to do to things.

one is to post what i have finished with the new version. bitch. i cant.

~Fingy is cool. xD
~I didnt see that chick today on my way to school. x(
~Lunch=HahahahhahahahahaOhahhahaOhaohaohahoahoahoahhahahha...
~ATTRACTION.

hehehe. today was interesting.

~Driving to school i saw this hot chick for the third day in a row. heeh, i think theres this undeclared race going on between us, lol. i like it cuz she has lotsa the same driving styles and stuff. she passes right by troy.. i wonder if shes a CSUF student? mebbe fullerton HS? or maybe endeavor (shivers).
~Watched a movie in two of my classes. just the relief i needed. now i just want a few days without stevens... ahh.. the bliss
~Fingerhut has obviously given up his quest, which kinda sux cuz i was about to tell him what he had been threatening me about for the last week.
~Went to lunch w/ tyler olsen again today (also some other dude, forgot the name). on our way back to the car we saw this hot ass chick and me and tyler wanted to go and eat in the mexican food resturant she was in... but we didnt x(
~Driving home i pretty much cut off some chick and we raced the rest of the way home. i won xD. feels good to win to SOMEONE. (cuz u just cant win tyler o, and tyler h doesnt race)

Well guys, another interesting day. i guess.

~got the new limp bizkit album today. for those of you who havnt heard the remix of the song "Behind Blue Eyes" by the who, listen to it now:
No one knows what it's like
To be the bad man
To be the sad man
Behind blue eyes

No one knows what it's like
To be hated
To be fated
To telling only lies

But my dreams
They aren't as empty
As my conscience seems to be

I have hours, only lonely
My love is vengeance
That's never free

No one knows what it's like
To feel these feelings
Like I do
And I blame you
very coo. Umm, besides that i also started seriously listening to the new Blink 182 album that i d/led a while ago. ive fallen in love with it since. theyve definitely developed out of their shitty teeny bob stage into a fully emo-punk band. hehe, as a hax0r would say, i <3 em xD
~Just my luck that i took the SOTD of my page (for this version at least) rite when i get two new albums to whore off of.
~I think i'm getting the troy fever. you know, the one where you cant remember or comprehend or analyze anything? my work and grades depend off of my ability to analyze. this is gonna be shit if i cant figure out whats wrong with me.

besides taht, nothin else.
ttyl, ~James.

hey guys sup? sry for the sudden shitty template change. this is NOT the new version, just a prep for it.

~I think i'm starting to appreciate this country. Its nice not having to worry about war on our homeland. really the worst thing that can happen to us is that we get nuked, and then we all die immediately, which really doesnt matter.. i guess. That better than having to live in fear. Who do we have to fear? Canada? shit. those guys are so fuggin powerful. i just cower when i hear their names. *joking nod*

~Isnt it interesting how smells often have a larger emotional effect than sights and sounds and stuff? well.. mebbe sounds have a larger effect, cuz after all its mostly the music that i listen to that keeps me so happy. hehe, keepinithappy. cuz of the music. But anyhow, a smell can bring back so many memories and pains and hopes and beauties so quickly. even if its coming from the wrong place/person.

~God what a year this has been. And its still not over. I was thinking to myself today in my incredibly boring drive home (no passing/speeding/mauling people)(only one or two hot chicks driving shitty cars. yay!) that almost all year ive been thinking of other times in the year. I can say wholeheartedly that this year has been the most fullfilling, memorable, action-packed, and beautiful year i have EVER had. i dont think any of you want me to list what ive done. and i think ill save that till new years. All my memories before this year just seem.. bland now. hehe. cool

~so thats it. i think. gonna go see the play on friday, just asked my mom and earned some money. hehe, i get to drive. who knows what crazy things i mite do in my car at 10:30 at night? i gotta think up something creative xP

~James.

well well well. today was interestin 'nuff.

Got up thiz mornin and decided not to brush and blow dry and wet down and do all the other friggin things i do to my hair. therefore, i had a fro all day long. yay. my mom was SO pleased.

Worked for most of the morning till bout 2 oclock on my new layout (8th version!!). at least i got an idea xD

Went over to my gramma's house to do some manual labor at 2. While going there, i reached 105 MPH in my car on the freeway. new personal record, yippee! At me grammas i watered massive bouts of plants. her whole house is one big plant.

Then my parents came over and we ate dinner and cheesecake. Talked for awhile. watched my bro and dad beat up on each other, and went home.

I went over the santa ana canyon mountains for a little detour on the way home. Lemme tell you, that was one of the funnest things ive dont in a LONG time. Swervin in between turns and goin nice and fast up and down hills above a massive sea of beautiful lights is something everybody has to experience. the roads up there are SO fun, specially at nite.

Got home, worked on the layout a bit more adn thats it.

~I miss las vegas. iwanna go back. three weekends ago was one of the funnest times ive had all year.

its time for a major nice ass revision.
the point is finding time for it. and thinking of a style. lol, if i can think of it, i can do it. but its hard to think of pimp ass stuff.
frank wants me to do a neoviper site so we can co-op. lol, very tempting...
i think ill stay up all nite thinking bout what i wanna do..
~anyhow, brian on zelibe reminded me of how the super awesome synesthesia by AFI is. and it is, so i put as my first SOTD in a friggin LONG time.
off to work, ~james

Hey pplz. howz it agoin?
Love: to enjoy being around someone. To find admirable qualities of everything they do. To respect someone. To desire their company in every aspect of your life.

GF/BF: Someone you are interested in emotionally, physically, and mentally and enjoy being around. Someone whom you have time with and you want to be with not for the appearance they give you but for the feelings that they give you.

Hmmm. thinkin ill go see matrix revolutions today. that is, unless my dad backs out. other than that, its friday, and i wont get the tent off me house till sat. cyaz ~James.

OK. its thursday. gone on another non-posting spree cuz of my house being tented for the killage of termites. Eheheh. its actually pretty enjoyable bcuz we get to go out to dinner each nite and i play my computer in the trailer durin the day w/o any AIM interruptions xP. ummm. LAN party on tuesday @ Calvin's was pretty pimp, glad i went. For once, my comp was better than almost everybody elses, and it felt good.

Yesterday, me and fingerhut played the who's hot and who's not game. And i dont think i wanna play it w/ him again cuz hes a friggin big mouth. He like reads every initial i write down out to *other people* that were at our table in science to the point where i have to threaten to tell everybody who "rice bowl" is. hehe, it was fun nonetheless, and made 6th period, which is one of the two hell-periods, pass alot faster.
It hasnt rained as much as it did yesterday since me and diane were going out. Shit, i waz rememberin some of the stupid promises we made each other through the rain. Nevertheless, it represents a purity to me. Washing away the ashes. making me feel a bit better. Ive started dreaming again recently for some reason. Whatever that means.
~its actually pretty cool, my dad was driving our SUV in the gutters where there was so much water flying up, combined with the pouring rain and hail, that the entire car seemed like it was going under water. ITs absolutely amazing that we can be in there with water shooting past us and not g3t wet.

Today, i am feeling super duper weirdly happy. and goodbye.

Well... been awhile since ive posted last. due to shitty computer problems and other setbacks i didnt getto describe the weekend or anything. I dunno if anybody wants to hear it, so ill just say the desert was beautiful, as always. Too romantic out there. need someone to take w/ me xD
~Ummm. for some reason the majority of this weekend came with an extremely happy demeanor. Not my usual cover it all up optimism, but some seriously giddy happiness. Pretty coo, pretty coo. ~Where it came from i dunno.
~Did another batch of crap to my computer, but so far with its new configuration, its running better than it ever has. lets hope this is the last time ill have to mess with it in awhile.
~I have a new favorite object: The moon. Whereas last year i worshiped the sun for its bright warmth, this year i worship the moon as a symbol of blossoming romance and dim love. I love the light the moon sheds on the desert. Taking night walks out there is thrilling.
~I looked through the yearbook today and i REALLY miss all my classes last year. Though i gots lots of classes with cool people this year, i really miss all my old friends taht i used to have in euro and comp sci and english. Now those periods are empty (cept for comp sci)... i wanna talk and be social again. And now i dont look forward to schoool as much either, cuz i dont have very many classes w/ people i enjoy being around. Thiz royally sux.

Ya know, sometimes I jus have to wonder what I'm doing. I make a fool out of myself by doubting myself. I let people get to me, and I believe that what I have done is not right. Hell, I write entries made specifically for people that never have nor will read my journal.
Looking back through the pages of history, you cant help but feel the pangs of regret. The saddests words truly are "wouldve been". Regret is a feeling of burning fire that shoots down your spine. You feel it every time you catch the word "love" in your conversations ~ something all so far off nowadays. The burning of my spine cools though. I cant feel this way forever, everything comes to an end.
Maybe all we need for recovery is to glance into our past. Look into the pains we once experienced and forclose these pains by feeling them once again and once only forever. We can go back and blush at our own words. Isnt it amazing some of the things we did and said just half a year ago? We can all just take comfort in maturaty, wisdom, and knowledge. We've learned from our past, and that's all that matters.

Hm. This journal has been goin to hell lately.
~I went surfin the net today and watched all the music vid's i'm backed up on. Didnt have much hw. Feel kinda guilty for that. I also did some reading through the dialogues me and natty have been having for bout half a year now. Kinda scary actually.. natty knows more about me than i almost do. Oh well, good to have a friend like that ;D ~So, i was introduced to the new LP video through the MTV top 20 rock vids, and i thought it was absolutely the best of their Meteora music videos. Check it out here:
Numb

I also did some badly needed ZeLiBe browsing, and came up with this, courtesy of shohile:
End of da World
That is freakin halarious. Oh, and rite now i'm uploading the Simple Plan album and Yellowcard one if anybody wants it. Course, ill be posting it on zelibe, so you can just look there. Thats today.
HAPPY xD xD

well, normally i dont do these things. but i'm feelin good.

a - age: 16
b - birthday: 2/21/87
c - car: i own? accord luxery (xD) '91 , i want? eclipse '03 or better
d - drink: coke.
e - educated at: Troy
f - find me at: ~Nearest the rain~
g - gum: just something to get rid of da smell
h - hunnie: umm. i cant. i wont.
i - ice cream: vanilla. or whiter.
j - jolly when: When i have a good day.
k - kind of music: Everything besides black rap&country
l - language(s): english.Jamesglish.
m - mood: As always. xD
n - nationality: german
o - originally from: germany
p - pay attention to a guy's/girl's: legs faces and hearts.
q - quote: "With great power comes the great oppurtunity to ABUSE that power."
r - radio station: radio is G A Y. at least since KDL started commercializing.
s- sport(s): -none-
t - tv show(s): csi
u - used to be like when u were little: a bitch
v - visuals: depends on whether i care or not. but i have blonde hair.
w - work place: my baby. computer.
x - x-rays: 253
y - years till devirginization: 5
z - zealous over: coke and ..

Whew. back from it all. Tho i dont know if thats for the best.
Started w/ SAT's on saturday. Not to bad. i r0cked teh s0x off the math but dunno so much bout vocab.
Right from there me and my family started for vegas. We went through diamond bar. Thats a really beautiful town, and i envy all the people who get to go through the carbon canyon pass every day.
About an hour later we got to Kahom Pass, which is in the vicinity of the fire region. Wow. you guys have no idea what it looks like over there. It's like god has put a torch to the earth. (and his torches are friggin big!)
So we went over the pass. Not only was i tired. I was smelly, dirty, and felt like crap because i was butt ugly as i didnt spend a second putting myself together that morning. My face hurt from god's damnations upon teenagers, and my hair was plastered down cuz i wore a hat to the SAT's. Not only that, it was smelly cuz my brother doesnt know what deoderizor's are.
With that said, when i got to vegas, i was really happy to take a shower and make myself look real cool. Then we hit the town. I love vegas, and as much as i love it during the day, i love it more during the night. The lights, sounds, smells, and coolness of the air is fantasmical. The first night, we went to see a reasonably expensive ($125 per person) show, a water version of cirque du chalet. It was pretty awesome. Cant really be described here, i can just say that there was too many things to watch, so i could afford to see it about ten more times. Oh, and there was this really hot azn girl right in front of me with her equally cool looking boyfriend.
After that we went back to our hotel (the Cirque was in the coolest place in the world, via bellagio) and got some ten dollar ice cream. My parents told us to go do whatever we wanted, and they went to go drink and have a dessert together and do god knows what else (my parents dont normally gamble [although i did convince my dad to put 25 cents in one machine and he won a dollar! yippee!!]). So i explored the hotel for awhile, and as vegas is, there were tons of lights, smoke, sound and entertainment in the air. THere were these pimp ass bartenders flinging glasses in the air and catching em and pouring alchohol these insane ways. that was cool. So after that me and my brother went back up to the hotel room, cuz we had our own keys, and we sat and watched TV until we fell asleep. I found a movie called Primal Fear which was really good. or.. semi good cuz there kept on being commercials every 5 minutes and they were really annoying.
The day after was the day of my uncles wedding. I went half the day without taking a shower or anything, and looked pretty bad. During that time we went down to the pool and i figured out that i still have what i used to have in me: i was able to outswim my dad and outbreath him in every stroke and contest we had. Pretty coo.
After that i got dressed up in my SUPER cool outfit that i also wore to homecoming and that i look like a punk rock dude in (we'll get to more of that later) and went off to the wedding. Guess what? my shoes killed me once again. Had to take them off and walk for literally a mile through via bellagio (casino and all) to get to the wedding chapel. The actual reception was really small. After it, me and my dad and brother found these mints that totally rox0red. we took like 200 of em and our pockets were bulging when we walked out xP
After that.. i went into my uncles room along with my parents and had some dry champagne, which never tastes good, and then was served some w/ peach flavoring, which was a bit better. That was pretty not cool, so i went downstairs to my room and watched my bro play games for a half hour, which was pretty boring. After that, we went to one of the best parts of the weekend: a resturant on top of the massive Rio tower (50 floors) with an outlook over the entire city and pretty pimp food.
I ordered a hella big dinner, cajun prime rib and mashed patatoes and went outside to look at the city and stars. Everybody else came out at first and i danced with my mom cuz the music was cool and all. After awhile, everybody else got cold and went inside, but i stayed out. I thought some stuff over for awhile. Nothing that anybody can really relate to. Problems in my own head, problems nobodies ever seen and nobody will ever see. Its amazing what las vegas is: beautiful, dangerous and risky, intriguing and expensive, poor yet luxurious. Its the only place in the world where they give out pornography pics one second and two seconds later you have a butler you didnt pay wiping your ass for you. I really love it there. I love the dynamicism of the city. Hell, if it was moved next to a beach, id live there, but it isnt, so ill stick with yl, the land of the setting sun. OK. so i was in my own little world for about ten minutes. Time i really needed. the cutting cold helped it along alot, also.
So i went back in and started on dinner. The food was really good despite the fact that i couldnt get a drink cuz the waiters were lazy asses. My new cousin's boyfriend .. almost fiance .. is a player for the punk band melee, and we were talking about music and stuff, and it turns out that he's played with a LOT of bands that i know. Lucky lucky dude. well, now i got connections, all i g2 do is ask ;) Apparently he's playing at chain reaction dec 20th, so i'll be there for that.
After dinner me and my brother walked back through the casino/hotel and to our room. we rented bruce almighty for ten bucks. alot of stuff happened that night that arnt that interesting that i dont have much intention for writing.
The next morning we started home. Didnt do any fashion again, and gods curse on teenagers were particularly hurting (they were acting up big time this weekend) It was a long trip home. As we neared the san bernadino mtns, it started raining. Absolutely beautiful how gods will is. One moment a firestorm, the next rain washing all of the dirt and scum from the earth. I truly love rain. What made it even more amazing was the beautiful setting sun that arose out of the clouds as we entered yorba linda. This truly is a beautiful place to be. I love yorba linda. more than las vegas. more than alot of things.
This weekend was significant. I needed it. My parents were SO loose. Ive never seen them have so much fun and be so hefty on their pocketbooks. They really didnt give a shit about what i spent or did. They had more fun than ive ever seen them have. And for once i felt like we were a family again. I like that. I like being able to mean it when i hug my mom. To mean it when i say thanks.
So now ill sign on AIM for awhile. see wat happens.
~James