for what i did this weekend:
on friday i sat at me gramma's and put some more dents in the incredible collection of simpsons eppy's i got.

on saturday i was supposed to go to work, but i'm still in training or something so i dont work this weekend. heh. my parents let me stay at my grammas so i could work, so i said that i was going to work to please them, and then went on a nice little tangent for 8 hours. BOOYAH! 8 hours of whatever the hell i want! so i washed my car, did my laundry, and hit the streets. first, i headed over to the orange block. me and natty drove there on thursday at lunch, but i wanted to actually walk it rather than just get there and go back to school. that place is fucking HUGE! its almost as big, if not, bigger than the irvine spectrum. its got this nice ass virgin record store. guess where i'm gonna get all my newb band cd's now? heh. i love that place allready. its purty purty purty. when i was coming home i got myself lost by takin the wrong freeway right into los angeles. i didnt realize i was goin the wrong direction till i hit knotts berry farm, then i turned around (i found the biggest fucking turnpike ever! it was SWEET!) and did another 50 miles back to my grammas.. well, i stopped at fry's first.. couldnt help myself xP

and today.. well it was a little toned down. headed back to my own house round '9 and did some homework. watched 28 days later, which really isnt that good of a movie. resident evil is better. after i got a little bored with homework, i grabbed my subwoofers and connected em all together, turned up winamp, and pumped up the volume. hehehe.. everything in my room was shaking. thats my way of dusting the cabinets.. and when i stood on the sub's i got a foot massage xP ~today's superbowl sunday, which means that tommorow when i get back to school i have to put up with all this "can you believe who won?" shit from guys. i think girls are lucky cuz they get away from it for the most part. watching sports on tv has as little appeal to me as supermodels on tv. i just would rather see the real world shit if i can.

and for the other shit:

first, check this baby out. i saw it when i went to fry's and was like HOLY SHIT! i mean, 4 lbs? and the overall size is smaller than... a notebook (a real life one, mind you)

god i love pianos. you put a piano in any band and i'll worship you. the piano, after all, is the reason why something corporate is my 2nd favorite band ever. 100 years by five for fighting is an absolutely beautiful song. as is the video

you know whats cool? everybody has a devil inside of em. me and bila were talkin about somethin like that until i mentioned that kevin peng is the antichrist (he is). like just surf some journals and stuff and you'll learn the sweetest, most innocent "i got all a's and a 1600" girls drive five hundred miles an hour on the freeway. purity is overrated. i guess its good that i actually come out and say "i'm a stupid dumbass! laugh at me!"

had the strangest dream last night. ravi told me he thot that lead singer from no doubt is hot and i said "she's fucking ugly (fugly)" and he was all appalled. or did that really happen? hmm.

RAMBLE RAMBLE RAMBLE RAMBLE RAMBLE

a though for the atkin's men: my waste is FUCKING SHRINKING. god damn it. i put these pants on yesterday and my waist doesnt even hold them up! not i gotta wear a belt. being skinny sucks... cept for the fact that you can look good without liposuction xP

and it gets darker..

I sometimes envy those people who go places and have fun with their families. Yeah, my family takes me out to the desert and we go motorcycle riding. Know what that involves? My mom sitting in the motorhome studying medicine so she can get away from the family more and my dad riding off somewhere with his group of people. I go with him sometimes, and its ok fun, but pretty challenging stuff and I usually end up getting hurt. Even when me and my family are together, I don’t enjoy it. They are always picking me apart. They question me about grades, my free time, community service, getting a job, how I drive. Everything. They never drop a compliment, just push me further. Every once and awhile we go out to dinner as a family and we have fun. We talk and joke like normal families and I become as happy as always. The last time that’s happened.. at least a quarter of a year ago. People think I’m joking when I say I don’t know how old my brother is. I don’t know my mother’s or father’s birthday. I’m not joking. I really don’t know anything about my family because they don’t tell me. They just insult me and make me want to be away from them. I want to love them. I really do. I want to be part of a fully functional and caring family, but I just cant be. And that isn’t entirely my fault.

i wonder if some people even have hearts.

Turning Japanese baby!
and for your soft-rock pleasure: Tisbury Lane

life's just floating by, ya know. feels like you're caught in that endless whirlpool of repetition. every day's the same old same old and you'd give anything just to do something new. thats james for you, always praying, begging for change.

under that philosophy i started sketching around the other day. i draw girls that sit in front of me or across the room or friends, and my drawings are really not as bad as i would think they would be. if i spend alot of time on a drawing it will turn out pretty realistic. mind, all my stuff is very abstract.

working at the golden arches is pretty cool. i dont like doing nothing, but i love rush hour. just cooking fries or doing the take out window over and over again takes my mind off things. i like to actually be doing things in life. it really makes me nervous to just sit around with nothing to do. always been that way. i always feel guilty when i'm not studying or doing homework.. i guess that's why my grades stay at the nominal range.

speaking of school, this is the time when i put in some bullshit thing that talks about how i'm going to try oh so hard this semester because my grades really need to improve. i wont say all that tho, you've'll allready heard that. i guess its my turn to hit the books now tho.

pics from brians party

and for the emo-james:

just another day of trying to control emotions. i'm always perturbed by lust and happiness and sadness and thoughfulness. i dont necessarily get sad, but my heart skips a beat alot nowadays. ..skips a beat, kind of a retarded way to say that i get one of those adrenaline rushes at least a hundred times everyday that makes your heart feel like its on fire. you know, the things that come on with a surge of emotion? ya.

i wanna be a buddhist, to put away lust and want. ive really been trying to do it (without knowing what i was trying to do) for the last few months, but it's just so hard. how can we live life without something to dream about? maybe my dreams are too high. maybe i should just drop down one or two levels. heck, just stay on the same level and change my philosophies a little bit. but then again, i'm blabbering now, so i'll just quit while i'm ahead.

toodles, ~james. (i love the letter j)

Hey peeps! sup sup? Just got home from mickey d's off of birch and my momma's not even here to bitch at me! YAY! hehe, the one good thing about birch is that theres hot chicks there no matter what time you come. mmmm. eye candy AND stomach candy. kinda ;D ;D

The last two mornings i barely woke up. i woke up, sure, but i was so tired i couldnt help but stay in bed for a few extra minutes. i can GARUNTEE i wont make it to school on of the days this week becuase i'll forget to wake up and my parents dont give a shit if i make it to school or not.

yesterday i had job orientation. i work at mcdonalds! yay! laugh now, but u dont got a $500 per month paycheck (actually more like $540 or something) looks like i'm gonna actually be able to buys some stuff. but now i g2 do some late nite working every nite, which wont be beneficial to my grades fo sho.

i think i'm loosing hair at night. sounds crazy but every morning i wake up theres less stuff to brush and it gets a little more wilely. craziness. i hope thats not a sign of early aging or something xP

yesterday afternoon my mom got a rent a car and handed me the keys and said "have fun" so i took on a nice little joyride round town. went 100 mph at least both ways on the freeway (just ASKING for a ticket, i know, but it was hella fun) and then went and did fish tails up by chris, kim, and diane's places. its all turny and mountainy up there, kinda like an obstacle course xP i want a new car!! v6, preferably so i can do all the shizz i did yesterday.

new schedule is GREAT! i have at least one hot chick in every class (hooray for eye candy!) and at least 3 people i can talk to sitting around me.. well 'cept for in math, but i'm in the back, so i just listen to music and mrs stevens will NEVER know!! hahahahhaha... but seriously, my schedule is something to be worshipped. its a peice of art. mrs varieur wants me to transfer outta english honors and my sole defense not to rite now is because i dont want my schedule to change. haha, its more important than ANYTHING!

my entry's gettin too big. i'm forgetting some stuff, but ill mention it sometime else. this things startin to look like one of those mindless blogs from my xanga from a year ago (its almost my blogging aniversary!)

oh, and if i still had a SOTD, or song of the week, it'd be "Say Anything" by good charlotte cuz its one of the first of those love songs that i can actually relate to in awhile.

New template made by me. Like the last one I'm gonna put a lot of modifications onto this template, and I think I'm going to integrate it somehow with a little blogger-project i'm gonna take up in my free time (dun worry frank).

Late thursday: Tyler H's LAN party. it was pretty cool. Dmitriy taught me to play Haegemonia, which is a really super confusing but interesting game, and then we played straight HALO with breaks only for pizza. Though it might not sound like alot of work or anything, yelling every five seconds (or everytime you get shot or shoot someone) does wear you down, so I was exhausted by the time i got home. Slept in till 10:00 the next morning.

Late friday: Tyler O's concert/party
Well. tyler o's party isnt easily expressed in words. so heres the media:

Pictures:

The whole band
Tyler Singing
The basist
The awesome but offbeat drummer
And there was a guy named billy
And he liked to dance
And I contorted my face...
twice
And hijacked tyler h's car
Crashed it and took tyler o's car
And then the birds came
And there was the evil bush that kept on poking me. so i poked it back.. with its own stingers!
The evil dog
The band jester....
...flipping you off
So then the basist flipped us off
The jester trying to play the guitar
And sexing himself up
And screaming in the guitarists ears.



Movies:

Band Playing 1
Band Playing 2
Kids arnt allright
HES BORN!
almost M000000N!
Dancing!
Strip time


After the party and the drive home w/ tyler h. (which was almost in itself as fun as the party), me and my
brother and his friend went down to a fast food restuaraunt because my parents went to some sucky joint. when we walked
back up (yes, walked) we pulled some stuff, including the "walk in the middle of the road and wave at cars" and "pull
the shitty neighbor who says you drive too fast's garbage can to the top of the hill and then leave it in the middle of the
street" pranks. yea.. that was cool. specially the sweet sweet revenge on our jackass lazy beer-trucker neighbor.

Saturday: Round 12 i headed out to brian wungs place. the drive over the mountains into diamond bar was awesome. you can never get enough of country hills flying past at 90 miles an hour. fucking yahoo maps screwed me though, sent me to a dead end road, and i had to improv to find brian's house. it is, btw, a fucking mansion. he owns the entire side of a hill. SO crazy. i dont got no pictures, but I suspect that some will be posted on zelibe or on calvins site in the next few days. There, brian had amassed an arsenal of sweets, chips, and sodas, which I took full advantage of xP i brought my comp because it was a semi-lan party. even tho i dint play alot, i got about 200 simpsons episodes that i havnt ever watched before and about 8 full length movies that ive never seen. quite a bounty, if i do say so myself. thats not even including the 20 or so albums that i got. besides playing computer/console games, we played outside in the massive basketball/tennis court that brian has. haha. his parents must be filthy FILTHY rich to just be able to afford the property tax on a place like that.

so... tommorow i'm free, i guess me and tyler'll do something.. whatever that means. winter formal is coming, that'll be very VERY cool.. but fingy better be there, i think he's gonna chicken out on me. The semester's over. that really sux. i have a ton of new classes which means i got ta go out and make new friends again. i'm getting tired of making friends that i'll loose in a year.. so that's it, i'll get back to you when something interesting happens again. no?
~james.

Some kids think of suicide. I think of cutting my hair. xP

frank was talking about a technique of photo-editing called grunge so i took a shot at it with yesterdays pic.
Booyah....2~!
I think it looks alot better. still nothing like joann's works of art (Her Xanga)

Booyah!
Theres a short composition. I blush an awful lot. G2 get a nice tan on my face, no?

HAHA. i was considering not posting in awhile to make it seem like i was studying or something (which, btw, i'm incredibly procrastinating!! MY SPECIALTY!!!!). well, instead of studying i drove around today and took a huge shower (ran the house dry of hot water i did), and browsin the internet. its big. I TELL YOU!! its real huge.. mmm. my hair smells good. it should, i used every conditioner i could get my hands on. wouldnt be surprised if it all falls out tommorow xP. well, anyhow, lets just pump up the mest and HAVE FUN! yay.
~ttyz peeps
jms

wow. i finally found something i'm pretty good at. i spent about 2 hours yesterday messing around with this nice picture i have of kiwi, and lemme tell you. i made her look like a fucking goddess. its AMAZING. so i hit on the picture of natty at khush's party. and if i do say so myself, i think i did that picture some pretty good justice. anyhow, im me if you wanna see the kiwi pic that i did (cant just post it here) and ill add the natty pic on when i get home.

i also started a more personal journal. i keep KIH online, but everybody can look at it. due to some circumstances, i really cant say all i want to say..so its not really the journal i had last year that i can actually record what i'm thinking onto it. so... its nice to have an outlet for my feelings and stuff, seems like they dont get expressed alot anymore. i also think its really cool what i can do with faces and bodies in photoshop. i wanna take a pic of myself now to see what i can do. i need more pics of PEOPLE!! ahhh. i guess i just must wait until after winter formal, i'm sure ill have a TON then :D

weekend's here, no? ill be out partying w/ my grandma, fo sho. she's cool and she said that i can go anywhere i want provided i return to her house before dark. so i g2 find something cool to do, like go to downtown disney maybe and check out tickets for the house of blues (matchbook romance/mest concert comin up feb 4).. i mite, however, have to study for some finals.. wish i knew if theres even a point in studying for spanish. ummm... besides that, i dont got much to say. i just need to get a job.

CRAZY day. like half my finals are pretty much tommorow. but the good thing is all i have to do after tom is study for math, spanish(?), maybe a little us, and complete a bridge project

I realized something just now. The big majority of us at Troy have NO life whatsoever.. at least during the week. Whoever said life was about school and then coming home to do homework and sitting in front of a computer until the days end? God damn. i got to find something interesting to do around here.

I got a god damn parking ticket today. Stupid Bridgett and some cop were walkin around dishing them out, and tyler and tyler got em also as well as quite a few other people. if you dont hear it from me, chances are you'll hear it from somebody tommorow, cuz the tickets were flowing. I'm not so worried about the $20 fine as I am figuring out how to tell my mom. I mean, yea, its just a parking ticket, but shes the kind of bitch that gets worked up by the small things like that.

Matchbook Romance is gonna get a cult following from me. I mean they got awesome ass emo/hardcore music and I'm not much for being gay and all, but they are a pretty awesome looking group.
Pics: Pic2 Pic2 Pic3 Pic4 Pic5  And website: here

hey im james kim... and im one hot mother fucker, wit a height of 6'5" and a package to match, im single and looking for a hot oven to stick my hot pocket into... neone wanna hewk up just hit me up at 1-800-want-2-fuk... be waitin for your call ladies ;)

Water after a nice workout... almost as good as sex, no? Sex on ice.. mm =D

You know whats hella fun? The microwave. I mean, come on. How much greater can you get than a device that you stick a cold object in (such as a dead body or compressed propane canister), push a button, and the object either (a) blows up (b) comes out warm or (c) comes out warm and then blows up. And its not like those shitty ovens. You know, the ones where you have to know how long you're gonna put the food or whatever in for. For the microwave, just put some object in for half an hour, walk away, and when you hear a small explosion come back and turn it off. And, I hear they're selling these magical devices for forty bucks at fry's this good ol' weekend, so hop in a car and go get one!

I'm such a stupid dumbfuck. Haha, I let myself get all caught up in emotion again. Emotion is all good, but its only cool when you got someone to share it with. Bein a guy, I dont get to say "I feel" much, but rather "I did". So ya. Not much point in dreaming right now...

Yesterday after school I had a nice street race with Tyler O. He ended up beating me by coming outta the middle of friggin nowhere goin at least 100. I'll beat him someday...

Today I semi-raced Tyler H. to school. It was much titer cuz I was behind him alot of the time. Therefore, I was pullin 100 several time on the freeway. And if theres one way to wake up, its a nice race.

Hahaha.. I shouldnt do this to myself. I'm gonna get a ticket, and that'll sux0r. but then again I could just be cool and not get one.. somehow xP Whatever tho, it dont really matter.

But to be besides myself by racing, havin cyber sex (hehe), and ridin with tyler or tyler and rooting them on into turns and making them skid out 'nd stuff... that gets my mind off of things. so, as the wise one says, "whatever floats your boat". indeed.

Just another night.
See the harvest moon rising above the hills so far,
I pray, I pray for the luck this thing has granted me in the past.
Help me god, help me alot,
Because this hope, hope doesnt get us anywhere.
I pray...
Let my grades improve,
Let my classes stay the way they are,
Let me sit next to her. For your sake, let me have a chance.

Coming from a none religious man this might seem like nothing, but then again religion is all based on hope in the first place. The moment I hoped something might happen... from then on, I was religious.

Heres the best idea you can ever think of:
You know those couples making out in the hallway everyday? Well, you get a group of a bunch of big guys together, like Derek and me (xP) and dmitriy and we walk down the hall and one of us smacks the ass of the girl making out. Think of the possibilities!
I should be happy, ya know? Justified infatuation. I can probably make the accurate guess that she likes me, but then again, it just hurts more as a result.. I guess that's they way life is. I'm falling in love, not the true kind, the kind where you just cant keep your eyes off.. You're so beautiful.........................

I was driving home today (after racing Tyler O.) and thinkin about stuff and this song popped up.. I've liked it since I got the Matchbook Romance album, but I love it even more now... I love the whole band so much xD

Shadows Like Statues...
Lights out and my seat back as far as it will go,
Casting shadows like statues, I'm sight outside your window.

Chorus:
Theres no such thing as second chances, I heard no such thing.
Dont bother to explain...
You're so beautiful, did you hear a word I said...
You're so beautiful... I guess this is what I get.

We trust and believe so easily in words,
They speak we seek securely in one another,
But theres no way to cover this
And these tragic nights and afternoons wreak disaster
And I can still feel you as if you were in the room.
Where did our our story end?
Where did it start?
I buried you along with my heart.
Entertain me, and tell me "it didnt mean any thing"
As regards worth my tolderance and I could be careless but I promise you I'll feel everything...

Chorus.

I know. I guess this is what I get.
I know. Did you hear a word I said?
I know. I guess this is what I get...

Oh, and the happy song for the day is Spare Me the Details by Offspring. hehe, love that song so uber much too :D

TigerLily. The greatest greatest greatest song for goodbye's you'll ever hear.

Well anyhow, I meant to say this yesterday, but I was kinda caught up in some other stuff xP BUT I went back to school and I was totally like WHOA. I have to say that the amazing differences in hair styles and fashion in general by alot of girls makes troy such a better place to be. There are now about 20 more hot hot STEAMING hot chicks, and its very cool.

Oi. today me, tyler, thanos, and shohile raced to in-n-out and back and did a few tail whips and other cool manuevers. hehe, that was cool, despite the fact that we only had about 5 minutes to eat... but thats what you get for in-n-out. I also went over to tower records after school and got the Matchbook Romance album, cuz i'm falling in love with em. Too good they are. Imagine my surprise when I go online to look up concert dates and they're playing at the same concert that I wanted to go to in february that featured mest! I was ecstatic, which, added to the ecstatacity of yesterday, makes for one sweet ass day xP. Today wasnt so good, however, I got home and my mom told me I cant go to the theatres this friday. Bitch. i guess i gotta find something to do this weekend then..
~James

Well, I have to say this was a great day until I walked outta comp sci. Then it was a great day. I mean, its not every day you flash your student ID at Elsa and she calls you a "hottie". I mean, OMG.. i'm getting horny just thinking about it... but lets not go into my sexual fantasies xP

Saw Return of the King last night. Good ass movie that was. I could tell from the moment that i'd enjoy it one way or another cuz there was this super hot chick rite next to me xP .. but she had a boyfriend.. i think. Seems like all the bodacious babes out there either have a bf or dont want one x(

Well anyhow. I love movies that make me laugh out of sheer amazement. And I love seeing hundreds of thousands of orcs lined up getting ready to be massacred by a hundred thousand horse riders. And I love to see Legolas singlehandedly take down a tank of an elephaunt and about 20 guys with it... ah yes, its the simple things in life ;)

Guilt trips. Thoughts, actions and emotions to purify. Purify? Conclusion.

Life is so simple yet it's wrapped so tightly around complexity. Every day I look forward to the next for a single reason. One reason to keep me going. Tell me life isnt simple. It's like stumbling over rocks, but each time you stumble you get back up a little taller, a little wiser. I live solely for the day that I stop stumbling, and I can feel it now that that stumbling begins to subcede. All things come to an end, one way or another, and its just a matter of having patience. Patience to find a cure and patience to suffer again.

Teenage crushes. So superficial. But it's what keeps us going, no? The fact that you want something you cant have? Pardon me, but it's not a reason for suicide, it's a reason to hope, that is to live.

And then regret.
I fear the coming war, but sitting here waiting hurts me much more.
The only thing you can ever regret is not fighting. Is sitting back and watching. Is doing what I'm doing now.

Maybe I have had the wrong view of things. Maybe emotions should rule over us. Love and anger should go hand in hand. After all, feeling is human.

Aiya. First HW day of the year. Friggin scary really. but if i concentrate i'll probably be able to finish the majority of it... so i can do whatever tom.

Also, my parents were talkin bout takin me to return of the king. that'll be coo. so off to hw'in all!

yea, and i also updated the template a little. hehe, worked alot of time into scripting last nite, so hope ya like xD

Ice is cold. Plastic ice is cutting.

But then again, I really wanted to say that long entries dont fit this layout. I otta expand it or something so you can see more of an entry in each line.... I'll do it sometime.

For once in the last few weeks I have something to talk about. I mean, a week in the desert doesnt go by with COMPLETE nothingness.

The first day out there it snowed. Friggin awesome. See, on a motorcycle you can throw your backtire around and in that way throw dirt and snow with it. So me and my brother and father had snow/dirt wars on our motorcycles. Unfortunately the snow melted in about an hour. Friggin crazy how fast the weather changes out there. After that we went on a massive ride, which was really cool cuz we got close to a military reservation and these three jets were friggin stalking us. They would get right above us and WHAM! break the sound barrier. Each time we were nearly thrown off our bikes it was so loud. Pretty cool in the end tho, and we got our revenge with the christmas tree fire the following day.

The next day me and a friend watched all the episodes of an anime called "Cowboy Bebop". Its pretty cool actually, has a sad ending, but very cool philosophies and its very random and funny at times. At 10:00 or so (this was new years eve btw) we drapped five christmas trees that were tied together in explosives (M80's mostly), put gasoline bags in them (i wanted to mix it with flour and make napalm... but oh well) and threw a match on. Hehe, biggest tree fire yet, went up at least a hundred feet and the sound of the explosions was almost as loud as the sound of the sonic booms from the day before.

The next day I sat next to a campfire for about 7 hours straight (4-11) and talked with some kids from Norco that were all gangsta style. It was actually pretty cool, cuz us troy students are pansy's compared to them. But then again, i was two years older than both kids, so they werent gonna start anything xD .. ~jkjk, they were awesome, nice to have new friends. and the real badass one was all psycho cuz he and me liked almost exactly the same bands. Hehe, i was listening to his music cuz it was so loud we could all hear it and i said "hey! thats story of the year!" and he said "yea. they're awesome! ever heard of mest?" which was the band Ive been listening to since christmas break started. hehe. i love coincidinks. ;D

Then today we did a badass ride half of which was spent in a cold-ass-hell cloud with my finger feeling like blocks of ice. Hurt my leg, but i'll be ok.

Dreams have been real weird this weekend. Think one of them involved both harry potter 6 and 7 coming out and me fainting, and in another one i finally released all my feelings and... i dont even know how to describe it, but kind of a lust for showing her i changed or something.. that went away. that was probably better than those wet dreams that i dont seem to have anymore xP .. anyhow, that's da weekend. huge entry. gonna suck with my layout. hehe.

ttyl'z guyz,
~james.