Due to some divine inspiration (a chinese zodiac), i've decided to do a personal profile. If it sounds like I'm bragging or whatever, just dont pay attention. This is my turn to gloat xD

Overall, I'm a nice guy. I'm easy to get along with because I dont like disagreeing with people. I guess you could just say I'm timid because I dont like to arouse disagreements, but I prefer to say that I'm trying to be "agreeable". Nevertheless, I'll be the first one to spit something incredibly stupid back into your face. In a world of followers, sometimes we need someone to lead the crowd. If a group of people is leaderless long enough (meaning nobody WANTS the job), I'll be glad to take initiative. But then, I'm modest. Too modest. I dont like drawing attention to myself unless I'm certain its positive attention. I certainly dont like hurting other's aspirations. I like to make sure that everybody else gets what they want before I decide what I want. A fault of myn, I guess. Then, I'm not perfect either. I'm definitely not selfless. I do most of the generous things I do simply because I wish to gain recognition and popularity. After all, with lots of friends comes a good amount of power and ability.

Sympathy is a big problem for me. I'm sympathetic to almost everything I see. The hobo on the corner, the crying girl at the table, and the guy walking alone in the middle of the quad. All of these people I dont know, but I feel pain for them nonetheless. Often my sympathy is taken to far. For example, the girl crying the corner just could be crying for joy for all I know, but I'll assume she cries because she lost a boyfriend and hurt nonetheless.

But then, I enjoy suffering. I consider myself optimistic the majority of the time. That is, I see a bright future through all of the clouds that descend upon me. The only reason I am happy and optimistic is because I realize pain. I realize its out there, so I know how to avoid it.

I wouldnt describe myself as much compassionate as I would passionate, though. I dont necessarily feel for other people; rather, I feel for myself. I dont know if thats understandable, but its what I do. A better way of putting it is that I feel for the sake of feeling. My passion never shows though, because I'm shy like that. I just dont have the ability to convey my feelings like other people do. I think that given the chance though, I could show my emotions through actions.

In that sense, I'm not articulate. My parents always tell me I'm a good writer and whatever; but I'm not. I'm a good bullshitter. The things I think of, the things I feel can NEVER be put into words. My mind is complex, and that's completely understandable, because I'm always, constantly, consistently thinking. It's a hobby to me. I think everything through no matter how small or big. I plan without papers, forget my plans and plan again. Like I said, a hobby.

One other thing: I'm symbolic. Symbolic to the extreme. I take nothing literally, and I analyze the unanalyzable. I try to figure out what it means if a person starts walking on their left foot rather than their right foot. It's stupid I know, but its just a game I play with myself I guess. I nice little mind game.

Speaking of which, one of the more embarrassing habits I have is talking to myself. I only do it when I'm alone, but I find it quite fun to hear my own voice converse with itself. Often talking to myself makes me smile. Hah, I laugh at my own jokes SO many times its not funny. The jokes arnt even funny. Its just the absurdity of the fact that I'm telling myself jokes. But like I said, it's something noone will ever see, because I do it when people arnt around. Its my way of keeping myself social and happy.

xD that went well.