I feel like all emotion and life has been sucked out of me. And I just dont think it's fatigue this time.

Dropping a crush is never easy. Guess noone ever said it was. It's everything that getting dumped is except the overwhelming loss. How can you loose what you never had?

I dont really feel anything right now. I havnt been passionate about anything besides women since Diane. Even if I renewed my passion for programming/web design, I'm not even allowed on my computer.

I try to think about happy times: a little chat with a good-looking girl, a great joke between good friends, a tasty meal, maybe about my bright, unwritten future, but nothing gives me a smile for more than a second.

You know; alot of people are stuck wondering if they will ever love again. I wish I was just given the chance.