I'm often awed by how interrelated everything in life really is. I really believe that all trouble spawns off of money and I believe that all happiness is a form of love one way or another. That's besides the point I want to make though.

I think that if anyone ever asked me what my biggest regret in life was, I would say that I regret ever changing myself to suit someone elses needs. I think that all of our personal problems, every one involving women, friends and money, all spawn from troubles within ourselves. I think that all of us have at one point adopted some part of society that has been virtually forced upon us, and those things are like viruses in our brains. We are trying to get rid of them from the moment they instill themselves, because they just don't fit with our personalities.

That's a bunch of bullshit, though. I accidentally just escaped into theory-land, sorry guys. I wanted to put forth a fundamental reason for not changing oneself, so here it is: we can never understand, none of us, each other as humans. Every one of us has experienced a unique life spanning, (for my grade level) anywhere from 15 to 18 years. And nobody can experience those 18 years alike. Nor can anybody imagine what those 18 years were like for someone else. So if nobody can put themselves in another person's shoes, nobody can ever know another person's motives, likes, dislikes, or anything. Therefore, why in the hell would you try to change yourself to make yourself look better in the eyes of an individual you cant possibly understand. There's no way in heaven or in hell that you can intentionally make yourself the exact person that that individual likes.

Anyhow, you probably have a much better chance getting anybody to like you by being honest. I can tell you now that I as a person, really respect people that stand up for themselves and their beliefs and that I as a person really despise people who try to act 'cool' or whatever.

Take this one girl I've known for a long while, for example. Me and her almost never agree because our views on life are so drastically different. She's a pessimist while I'm an optimist, she's a conservationist for the most part while I don't give much of a fuck about what happens to the environment, she hates George Bush while I respect him. Stuff like that. I like her a lot, because I know that when I talk to her, I'll get the raw truth from her prespective. I know she isn't trying to fit into the norm, or sound normal, or god-forbid, get into my pants. She just speaks her mind. People like that are hard to come by. Even I have instances where I silence myself to be 'polite'.

Lolz, this entry is the random crap I beat myself over. xD ~ttyz folks!