One thing I've learned about life and people, and is reinforced time and again, is the fact that everybody always makes everything seem bigger than everything really is. Vague..

For example, if I was to ask a friend how a luncheon went (that I was not a part of), he would probably respond with "marvelous! it was so funny! you should have been there man.. " and proceed to give a "brief" summary consisting of what most likely is the only funny parts of the luncheon.

What I'm trying to say is that people are always trying to make themselves look better than the other person. They will modify everything they do just to look better than everybody else, to cause jealousy really.

In other words, the grass is more dead and wilted on the other side than it seems.

And this happens with everyone. My dad will constantly brag about how "fun" things that he did were, provided I was not involved in them. I daresay even I tend to magnify events, as I remember just last week telling everybody about how fun it was to be doing english dq's with scott and calvin and sam (it was quite funny).

Avoiding jealousy and depression when confronted with truly ecstatic friends who are supposedly doing things more fun than what you are doing is really hard. It almost makes you wonder why you are friends with the person. I feel jealous all the time when I read journal entries that seem to be bragging to me; however, I have gradually learned to stay away from journals that conjure this feeling in me.

--this entry seems really disconnected. i feel like i'm explaining something i dont believe in.