What a busy day. Still overwhelmingly confused, but that's a matter for another time.

The play today was AWESOME. Upon going to it, I was really looking forward to going to dinner and using it as a social outing, but I didnt expect the play itself to be very good. Dont think I could have been more wrong though. It was SO funny.. gosh I was laughing even through some massive stomach cramps that crept up on me in the second act.

And calvin, he was just cool today/tonight. We havnt talked alot since last week, and I was beginning to think that he was becoming just another friend.. but tonight we talked about so much stuff, I got to share so many things with an open ear.. I guess i'm at least somewhat content. I still havnt said everything I want to say, but its getting close.

I wont bore you with a lengthy summary of my day, or formidable essay on the play.. if you want to know about stuff, just ask. thats the way this journal has always been set up, i'm only gonna say what i wouldnt normally.

Amongst the fun of the play and thrill of me and calvin's driving feats, my soul still aches from stuff in general. It doesnt help that I'm overwhelmingly confused, especially about this week. I feel like its all a dream, then I pinch myself and realize its not. I build defenses all around me, but I dont know whether or not they're gonna be used.

It's so confusing, and I'm so tired. I'm gonna give up on it for now. I'll just live with the pain in my heart.