I was talking with a friend of mine today about how we all get judged prematurely alot in our lives. I can think of one specific instance in my life where a girl I knew out of nowhere decided she didnt like me. Then she went around and told all her friends that she didnt like me. As far as I could ever tell, I did nothing to help her to the conclusion that I was a horrible person, or whatever; but nevertheless she came to that verdict.

It's not really a problem anymore though because somehow in our silent battle against each other I convinced her that I was "cool" or something, and all of a sudden I get only smiles and waves this year. It's absolutely ridiculous, almost moreso than her hating me.

I'm always an open supporter of people being vocal. I want to know when somebody has a beef with me, I'd rather they not hide behind the internet or their own dignity. That's absurd, and it only compromises potential friendships. But another good question is why people hate other's before they even get to know those others. Surely something as intricate as personality cannot be predicted by one persons action in the one or two situations that you have known them in? Nevertheless, I'm getting a little unclear, so I'll stop.

One thing I've always had a problem with is weird people. I'm not talking about people like me who be weird just because it makes others smile, I'm talking about people who are genuinely weird just because they think it's how they should act. Like Napoleon Dynamite, for those of you have seen the movie. I never really know how to respond to complete strangers (or semi-strangers) when they come up to me and say something random, like "Oh did you hurt your leg doing something really cute like rescuing a dog?". I'm just taken aback by something like that and I have to sit for a couple of minutes trying to figure out if the person is trying to make fun of me or if they are certifiably insane.

Or how about this lady who came into the barber the other day while I was waiting for my brother to get his haircut. She has these two insane kids who are (literally) drooling and sucking some smoothies and getting it all over their face and they are friggin 12 years old at least. They arent retarded either, because you can normally tell that kind of thing by physical appearances. This poor mom has to sit there next to me and these two (smelly) kids and tell them every 10 seconds "dont burp out loud", "sit up straight", "dont spit out the juice", "be nice to that nice boy"... And in any normal situation I'd lash out and just smack the beasts, in the process doing the job of the mother, but I dont know if that's legal. I dont know.. I guess weird people really scare me. They seem like they dont have their morals straight. I honestly could see a guy like Kevin Peng nuking Yorba Linda just because he thought it had a rat problem or something. That's what scares me I guess.

Of course, weirdness is kind of a generality. We're all weird in our own way. Alot of us try to cover it up though. I'm going to be a hippocrite right now in lashing down on fake maturity, because I know I do it all the time... but I have to say that one of the oddest traits of modern teenagers (yes, this is a very new trend) is that they try to look much more mature than they really are. Some of us, for example, try to convince the world that we're depressed because we have soo many troubles, even though we have none. Others try to be serious and professional in everything, but usually end up just looking plain fake. This kind of behavior is so immature though.

The most mature teenagers, to me, are the ones who are truly immature, but not bad at it. It's one of those weird paradoxes that actually makes sense (at least to me). Let's take, for example, Shohille and Thanos. These guys dont fake anything, and I love them for it. They say exactly what they want whenever they want to and they are so fun to be with because they are so damn carefree. I, without a doubt, would label them as immature. I'm sure my parents wouldnt love them like they love some of my friends, but I myself consider them to be of the most honorable teenagers. They dont concern themselves with the stupid adult-in-a-teens-world shit like love or work, they just have fun.

Anyhow, what's up with the absense of a LJ community. I feel like once every two months or so I have to yell out
POST ENTRIES YOU BORING F*%KERS
jeese. You guys shouldnt get me all pissed like that.
..lj..