I woke up at 3 again this morning again. It's something that's becoming second nature to me now, waking up 2 hours before I'm supposed to leave and just laying there in absolute comfort. I have to say that there are two things better than an orgasm: the feeling when you lay down for the first few minutes after a long day of work, and the feeling of surreal bliss that comes in a cold morning when you're surrounded by pillows and sheets and your whole body is warm and snuggly even though it's 50 degrees outside and you arent quite awake but you arent asleep either and you just lie there and think about your dreams. That's bliss.

The oddest things happen to me within the first 20 minutes after I get out of bed. It's as if my body has a startup cycle, and when I wake up it cannot heat itself or see or protect itself from heat. I'm sooooo sensitive in the morning, and my whole body shakes so bad it would look like I am in a seizure to an outsider if it's cold. Or if I wake up later, when the sun is up, I literally feel my skin burning when the sun touches it because it's so sensitive. When I wake up at 5, like I do most mornings, I have to turn my light on and just focus my eyes for a minute because my pupils take so long to undilate. I've also noticed that I have almost no pigments in the morning, and I am therefore embarrasingly white (and you all thought I was white allready!).

Of course, weak as I am in the morning, it all goes away. I love my body because when it gets going, it's a tank. I mean, I've been walking around on a broken ankle for two weeks and nothing has happened. Isnt that impressive? lol. seeya.

..lj..