You know, I got so much random stuff to say right now that I really cant do much but just try to start from the top of the day and work down. Therefore I'm going to write in a really disconnected, disorganized fashion.

I woke up this morning smiling. I had a really good dream last night, well a good dream that wasnt also wet. =P It pretty much appealed to me romantically, as I havnt had a flame in my heart in... uhh.. 4 months? So yeah, it was nice to heat up the ice, so to speak, or whatever. (cause, you know, my heart is certainly a block of cold cold ice)

During the 1<-->2 passing period today I was reminded as to why I dont go in the bathroom connected to the 500 building - the mentally retarded. Not only do the kids attempt to peer at my member, they also talk gibberish to you and get in your face; which is not something I expect nor enjoy in a bathroom, let alone any other place in the world. I really have never gotten why they try to integrate retards with regular kids, it might be good for them, but not for us at all. I remember a couple of years ago watching some mental kid randomly walk up and grab some girls chest, causing her to scream. You think he got punished or anything for that? No, they just shook their fingers at him, and there's nothing stopping him from doing it again. Dont get me for a hitler or whatever, I dont wanna kill these people or anything, I just dont think it's right that we try to integrate them into our norm, it's like letting little kids into a serious workplace. Nevertheless, there has been a new set of bathrooms at Troy for two years now, near the North Gym, which is my haven for going to the bathroom because (a) there are no retards, and (b) most of my friends go there as well so it's almost a social outing! =P

The typical school day is getting really boring. It's a combination of not being able to talk in any of my classes, not having very many good friends sitting close to me in any of my classes, tiredness, the insane boredom my teachers drive me to, and the fact that each day I really only look forward to second period and 5th and 6th period. 2nd because my teacher, Mr. Rodriguez, is a genious if there ever was a teacher that was so. He manages to actually teach us math, and keep us interested, and he doesnt compromise his curriculum. That's magic if you ask me. Besides, he's the funniest guy and has the greatest laugh. I mean, who else would think up the term 'Rodzilla'? (for those of you are in his class) =D =D

Of course I naturally look forward to 5th and 6th period because during 5th I get to browse the internet and watch MTV and during 6th I get to talk to my friends* the entire period. And then I go home and sleep. And maybe do a little homework.

This constant struggle with homecoming in terms of where to go and who to hang with has been tearing me apart, but to be completely honest, I'm really enjoying it. Why? Everytime something changes and I have to go discuss it with Krista, I feel I'm getting just a smidgen closer to her, and that makes me really happy.

I was taking my brother home from the hospital (he was getting his stitches/staples removed) and rather than travel the hectic mess that is Orange County's freeways, I took the beautiful, serene route that is Serano Heights home. I wont hold back the fact that nearly the whole time I was thinking about the last time I had been up there, which was during the summer with Diane. Haha, I still kill myself over this week after week but I've never felt so open with a girl I liked so much.. and though I dont really get sad about it anymore because we've ended everything on the terms of silent friendship, I cant hold back the old shards of hope and optimism from tearing at my heart .. because we had something going and it ended so abrubtly, and I had so little control over it. I've never had something like that happen to me, and now that it has, I still dont know how to feel about it.

I got home and went into LJ and wallah! four new entries from different people, and two promises from others. Man, my white boy intimidating powers are obviously still strong. I feel very powerful. lol. I've changed the font size for my entire journal because maddox is not only right in saying that it's pleasing to the eye, but I also find myself reading the entries of other's more thoroughly if there is a larger font face.

..lj..

*I mean friends, including Calvin, Krista, Huong, Kester and Ravi. Dont try to overinterpret me. =D