For some reason I couldnt fall asleep last night. It could've been the wind, my parents, or the fact that I have a sore throat and stuffed nose. I think it's the latter. Thank god I have cold medicine stashed away in my medicine cabinet, I dont know what I'd do without it.

Even after taking that infernal stuff, which tastes like fermented sugar, I didnt go to sleep for another hour. I ended up just moping around the internet and reading my outside reading book (Native Son, which is quite good) for that time. So yeah, bad night last night. I hate being sick, but at least it's not an incredible flu-thing like I had last year around this time where I was puking all over the bushes at Troy and practically fainting on a concrete bench.

Just as I expected, I woke up this morning to the sun shining right in my eyes. Although I dont mind waking up to a nice warm sunrise, I was seriously annoyed by the glaring spot in all of my mirrors which basically confined me to one lane all the way to school. I guess it's cool, because my dad was right the other day in mentioning that the freeways are a bit better now that the sun is up in the mornings. I started from home at my normal time today and filled up with gas and still got to school fifteen minutes before the bell rang, which is probably a new record for me.

Aside from that, I dont got much to say. We have thursday off this week, so I have to find something fun to do (something tells me I wont have to go look far for that one), and I've had this odd sense of uneasy comfort all day long. It's not really easy to explain, but it's like I'm where I want to be in life but I cant really figure out if this is all just a joke, if where I am now is going to be anything like where I am next week. I'd pay for stability right now, but nothing's ever that easy.

My life changes directions so fast sometimes I feel like I'm on a roller coaster ride. My friends will ask me to come on long vacations with them out of nowhere two days before the thing begins, my parents throw things like jobs and trips into my life, and my social life is anything but stable. I really cant complain because I like having such a dynamic life, but there are times, like right now, where I'd like to just step away from it and settle down. I'm probably just tired though.

Music, thank god, remains constant. I love how some songs/albums can be incredibly bad the first time you hear them, but after listening to them 10 or so times, you begin to realize the amazing artistry that is behind them. I love how some songs make me literally cringe in their beauty, how they reflect everything that I'd ever like to say in a way that is all too beautiful.

..lj..