I have this really weird code in my life: to live each day different from the last.

Not to be contradictory, but in the small things of life, I love change. I like eating out at a different restaurante every day and traveling a different route to school and listening to different music at different volumes and talking to different people and just surprising myself each and every day.

Of course, I do not wish you to mistake this notion for the fact that I also want stability in the more rooted aspects of my life: I deeply need a stable relationship, a constant source of income and food and shelter, and friends that I can rely on day in a day out.

But in general I like looking back at last week and saying "wow, I've learned alot in the last week and I'm so incredibly different from what I was then!". I guess you could attribute it to alot of things, like my love of learning or my love for my friends, who certainly dont want a boring me slouching around. I'm just really happy right now that my life is so filled with variety. Each day comes and goes and I no longer know what I can expect of tommorow, except that my friends and family will still be there, and that I'll be getting one step at a time closer to alot of things I feel almost undeserving of.

Awww.. forget it. I feel like I have something in my head, but for right now I just cant get it out exactly right. Anyhow, I finished all my apps today, so yay. Dont have to worry about that anymore.

..lj..