I'll never understand why people arent more open about themselves. I dont understand why some girls will just sit there on a wall looking depressed whenever they're sad, and even when their friends ask them what's wrong, they'll just say nothing.

I could never do that. The only way I keep myself from being sad is bitching about things in my journal or to my friends because then I can laugh about it and shake it off. A girl asked me this morning how I was feeling and I really couldnt answer. I dont feel much anymore and I really dont mind, because when I say I'm feeling "nothing", it normally means that I'm inherently happy, because I'm an optimistic person and happiness is just the way I naturally lean, provided I dont have shit to grope over.

Anyhow, today was long, boring, and by no means of any interest to you guys. The highlight for me was seeing Sahiles minivan get "pimped" and filled with newpapers. I'm still pretty sick but at least it's going away. This damn cold has kept me down and out of the action all week. Curse diseases. Thank you to all of the people who care enough to say "hope you feel better", because those simple words are worth a small smile to me.

~..lj..