Maybe maturity is letting go of things. Maybe its the ability to go to work every day and not let that get you down. Maybe it's doing your own chores not because someone asked you to, but because it needs to be done and you really dont care whether or not you do it. Maybe it's letting go of your friends and just letting things happen as they do. Yeah. That's what it is. Maturity is the movement out of philosophy into the real world.

Or maybe it's the ability to separate things from places where they belong and where they dont. I'm so tired of opening up journals or hearing people gush over how they love their boyfriends/girlfriends so much. Well, I'm not so much tired of seeing/hearing these things so much as I am disgusted by the blatant immaturity of them. I love my friends just as much as anybody loves their girlfriends/boyfriends, but you dont hear me gushing about it. Love is one of those things that is best kept to yourself: dont say it, just do it. "I love you" means nothing if you turn around and slap someone up, everyone knows that. Sure, I love people, but nobody is ever going to know who I love because it doesnt matter.

Me? I'm immature. Dont go down on me for what I write.

Anyhow, I got this vague sense today that I no longer care what happens to me. I wanted two things coming into this year, one I've gotten and the other is to get into a good college, which is pretty much out of my control right now, as I've submitted all my apps. I'm in everything just for the ride from now on.

Speaking of the ride, I'm off to go riding. I'll be having alot of fun, I hope you guys do to.
.eljay