Damn. Someone feel my forehead.

So tommorow's friday, the last day of school for us Southern California students before Winter Break. Three of the cliches I hang out in want to do something fun, and I did too on monday; but right now I dont. I dont want to do anything tommorow. I want to just come home and sleep and eat and watch TV and just be a couch potato because I'm tired of everything right now.

I'm tired of friends and school and clubs and everything that has anything to do with being social. I dont want to spend any money tommorow, I dont even want to go to school. Today seemed close enough to a friday to me, why even bother with tommorow?

You know, I just want to get it completely over with. Cant I just graduate right now? Can I just muse over all the crap I have to go through for the rest of the year: jobs, cars, school, dances, colleges. I just want it to be June 15th. I want to go on a road trip with the Tyler's and just disappear from the existence of the friends who have become so shallow to me.

I love them all, but nothing seems to have any weight attached to it anymore. My friends almost speak in different languages. I dont feel incredibly involved in anything: there are no hot relationships or heated fights going on and nobody really cares about anything besides college and sports and I'm just so tired of it all. I want to go forward or back a year, just not be here.

The social monster that was James has faded, if for now.